BEST SUMMER EVER

It was the summer before we become fourth year and I think, our last vacation before we graduate, so my friends and i decided to have a 3 day vacation out of town on april 13. At first we're thinking to have it in puerto gallera, but we thought that it would be very pricey since we still don't have work 'cause we're just students, so we changed it and moved to ilocos norte which is more affordable and nearer since we only need a bus to get there, unlike in puerto gallera that we need an airplane or a ship in order to get there. April 13 was fast approaching and i thought that our plan is already polished, but as our departure date comes closer some of our friends back out, then we realize that we we're down to 3. We tried to convince our other friends even if they're not our classmate to come with us. We decided that we will still continue this vacation even if it's only the three of us, since it was the three of us who planned this vacation from the start, good thing, patrice convinced a friend of hers to come with us even if she doesn't know us that well. So there you have it, the final four; patrice, jhoanna, cha and i. 

When the day of our departure came, it was april 12 since we need to be there at april 13 and the travel time would be 10-12 hours. I was all packed up and on my way to sm manila to meet with jhoanna when another problem occur, jhoanna's father didn't allowed her to come with us in ilocos, but since our mind is already set in going to pagudpud we convinced jhoanna that we will wait for her until 11pm. As we begin to lose all our hope, jhoanna texted us that she would come and to wait for her(even if her father didn't allow her), so we bought a ticket for four, again we thought that there wouldn't be anymore problem, but we we're wrong. The bus would leave at 10:30pm, but jhoanna is still on her way, so we asked the conductor if they can wait a little longer for her, i think he's beginning to get angry because the bus wasn't on schedule anymore, when the conductor said that we we're leaving i was so nervous and i didn't know what to do but to plead him to please wait a little longer then just in time jhoanna came with a smile on her face like nothing happened and she didn't even realize that she was almost left by the bus, but what's important is she still came even with those circumstances. 

Our adventure to ilocos had began. It was quite boring in the bus with a jacky chan movie playing(i think we're the only ones who didn't enjoy the film), so jhoanna and i were just chatting up until early morning 'cause we both can't sleep 'cause the bus was too shaky. As she was trying to sleep, she lend on my shoulder because her head bump into the window when she tried to lean there, so i was left alone awake in the bus for a few hours, but it's fine because i was beside her the whole trip. When we arrived at laoag we ride another bus going to pagudpud, it was a 2hours trip and my butt was aching 'cause of their uncomfortable seats.


We arrived at pagudpud between 11am-12nn, we stayed at Cathy's home stay, we rent a room that's good for 4 persons, as soon as we arrived we took a bath and ate our lunch outside, then after that we went back to our room for supposedly a quick nap, but we all fell asleep and woke up at 7pm, we would like to see the sunset since jhoanna had never seen one. But since we woke up at 7pm, we would just wait for another day to see it, instead we ate our dinner outside and have a night swimming then after that bought a very satisfying barbeque and have a few drinks(which i think was not few 'cause it made us tipsy, specially jho and cha), after that we all go to bed to have a good night sleep. 

Between 3-4 in the morning(i think) of april 14, i thought i was only imagining that someone is pushing me, but it was not my imagination, it was jho who was pushing me, so i woke up and find that she is awake but still tipsy, i think. I chatted up with her and ended up with sweet talks then came a a big shock to me when i heard her said the words "i love you" to me, even though i was a bit sleepy i can still feel this un explainable happiness inside me which i tried not to exposed 'cause i thought that she's just tipsy at that time that's why she can say those words, so i asked her to tell me those words again when she isn't tipsy anymore. When the sun rose, we immediately packed our things to prepare for the 2nd day of our journey, on our 2nd day, we met kuya jayson, a friendly driver and also our tour guide/photographer, he toured us around the beautiful places in pagudpud; the wind mills, the lighthouse, the death defying rock formations and to the refreshing waterfalls. It was a long, tiring, but very fun and exciting day, it was a well spent day, and i we thank kuya jayson for that. 

When we got back into our stay, we decided to have an afternoon swimming so jhoanna could see the sunset, and it didn't disappoint her, it was a beautiful sunset, all the tiredness was gone and happiness was all that's left in us. After we ate our dinner, we go back to our stay but patrice and cha wanted to witness the nightlife in pagudpud, so they left the two of us in the room, again,we chatted for a while until we got to those sweet talks again, then i asked jhoanna to repeat those words that she said to me last night. At first she hesitated, but she repeated it, then again, i was so happy that i don't know if i'm still in reality, i never thought that the girl of my dreams would say those perfect words at the perfect place but on the perfect time. She said that we still can't be in relation 'cause she wanted me first to meet her family, at first confusion hits me. I was doubting if she do really love me, cause if she already love me, why does she want to prolong our situation, but i came to reflect and realize, it doesn't matter if she really loves me or not, what matter most to me is what to believe in, and i want to believe that she really loves me. I don't care if i will be hurt in the long run, i think all of the pain would be worth it for her. 

The third day came, the time to say good bye to ilocos has arrived. Accompanying the sadness that we're leaving pagudpud was the bus that we took, it was a very digusting, hot, dirty and old bus. Who would thought that at the beginning and in the end of our adventure we will still encounter trials? So we get off the bus when we're in laoag, and from there we took the G.V. Florida bus lines, i think it's the best bus lines that can offer trips to the north of luzon. Then again, 10-12 hours of travel beside the girl that i love. So i was just thinking what would i long for when i was leaving ilocos.


 I think those are the beach, the views, the foods, the sand, the atmosphere, ate cathy and kuya jayson, but most of all, i would long those words from that girl.

ILOCOS IS LOVELIER THE SECOND TIME AROUND 

DOES A FEELING FOR SOMEBODY REALLY FADES AWAY??

hmm...if i were to be ask, i think no..because if you really did love that person no matter how long have you moved on, there will always be this spark in her that when you see her it's like all the memories in the past when you're still so in to her flashes back..specially when she is the most recent one that you have loved..you know the feeling when you are talking to your past love and you want to tell them all the things that you didn't tell when you're still courting her??of course you won't really tell it cause she might think that your feelings for her comes back and but it really did come back, you just don't want to ruin your friendship, so you'll just look into her face and smile..sometimes there is this situation which your past love is joking that you have a crush on her but you still do really have a crush on her..hehehehe.....it's so funny that you can't look in her eyes and tell the truth, so you will just laugh and try to change the topic cause you really want to forget your feelings for her..for you to forget that special feeling, focusing on other girl is not a solution...trust me..because you will not really forget her..for me, the best thing to do is to just accept that you still love her, but never think that she can never love you back, because you can get anything you want as long as you keep on trying, never give up, never lose hope, never back down, never fear failing, never fear pain..like they said, "love till it hurts no more"..hehehe...i used to think that when i fail for the second time, third time, fourth time and so on i will be embarrassed because that they might say i am so stupid, but now i think that it's not really stupidity it is just being true to yourself..because it is more stupid if you keep on telling yourself that you don't love that person anymore and still deep inside you, you know that you do..and what if they tell you that you're stupid??if the girl is really worth the risk, you will find that in the end "the juice is worth the squeeze" (i got it from the movie: the girl next door) :)

so when a former suitor stops courting you, then you become close friends, never be surprised when he tells you that he still loves you, because he is just being true to himself..


just because i moved on, it doesn't mean that i won't be here if you ever changed your mind..just remember that what ever you do, where ever you go, whoever you will be you will always be special for me..

Pre-Valentine's drama..

Valentine’s day is coming again and no one to celebrate it with. Hehehe. Well, I have my family to celebrate it, what I meant was a special someone. I don’t miss being in a relationship, I still want to be single for a couple of months maybe. But I fear if I don’t make a move while she still has this undeveloped love for me, maybe it will be gone forever or worst, she might find a guy in whose comfort she’s more comfortable with. I know  I have many flaws, that’s why I’m a bit insecure, specially because she is a very beautiful girl and I know a lot of guys would like her, even if she’s small. Heheheh. I used to think that I’m the only one who will have a crush on her, but now, I’ve realized that I was wrong. You see, she has been the girl of my dreams since I went into college, and for all those times I only wanted her to like me too, even if it’s just a little bit. I always want to be with her, I want to feel how to be loved by her, that’s why I did everything I could to get her attention, but I failed. I didn’t get a single chance out of her. You know what? It was so frustrating, knowing that you gave your best and she still won’t give any attention to you. Hahaha! I was so frustrated that I tried to direct my feelings to another person and it worked. But only for a short while, I realized that I’ve never really fall out of love with her in the first place. I only kept denying it to myself and suddenly I can’t keep it anymore and on a perfect timing, all the feeling that I have kept from her during the past years have been blown out of my mouth and on that moment I knew within myself that I really can’t get over her unless I won’t be able to see her for a really long time. Because, every time I take a look at her even just for a second, I always imagined myself being with her, not by just only being her friend, but I want her to love me. Do you know the feeling when she smiles at me or talk to me? Damn! I think I’m the happiest person on that moment. She made me realized that love is really worth waiting for. I know you’re thinking that I’m obsessed with her. But I’ll tell you this, you don’t love a person when you don’t think of him/her the way that I do. I don’t expect you people that will read this to believe me coz’ I’ve disappointed many people because of my sudden change in my relationship status, but I care less about them coz’ I don’t like them. I’m just focusing now on how to get the girl of my dreams come to realize that I’m worthy of her love. I hope this coming Valentine’s day, there would be a miracle. I think I’ve wished for too much, but I just really want to be with her even for a short period of time. I hope my plans go well. Wish me luck.. :)